These past few months have been the hardest that I've had to endure in my life! I found out that I was pregnant in October and started getting extremely ill just like I was with Livvy. Then it got worse and worse and I got to the point where I could hardly get up but I somehow found the strength to feed Livvy while Mikey was at work and that was all I could do. I tried to eat but would throw up up to 10 times a day. This went on for about 3 weeks and I had to go to the hospital 3 times to get hydrated. I lost about 15 pounds, at my lowest point weighing 98 pounds, I felt like I wasn't going to make it through that. During all of this I was taking zofran but it can't help unless you can keep it down, my ob just told me to try to sip ginger ale and nibble crackers and they just didn't understand that I couldn't. When I am pregnant I have a condition that .5 to 1 percent of pregnant women get called Hyperemesis Gravidarum and it is very hard to deal with especially because no one really understands what it is like to be that sick and other women think they understand because they threw up a few times and were really nauseous during pregnancy, it is very depressing and I felt very alone. We decided that Livvy and I would go and stay in Arizona with my family while I was so sick. That was the best decision because my mom, dad, and brothers and sisters helped take care of Livvy and I mostly just slept all day and my mom would make me food and eventually I started being able to eat again. I was only throwing up 3-5 times a day but suffering from extreme headaches, a side effect of the zofran I was dependent on to keep food down. I lost all of my strength because my body was just eating away at itself the whole time so it was very difficult for me to do anything even walk up the stairs. Right before going to AZ we found out that we were pregnant with twins but my first appointment while in AZ I found out that I lost one of them which was devastating. I found out that the baby that died had triploidy, meaning it had an extra set of chromosomes and would not have been able to survive, the scary news was that the placenta was cystic but thankfully the twins had separate placenta's and the healthy baby's placenta was normal! The doctor told me all of the scary risks of keeping the bad placenta inside of me but they really didn't know what was going to happen because this is a very rare occurrence. They said all we can do is wait and see what happens. I've gradually been getting better and now I've been gaining weight instead of losing weight so that is good! I've still been throwing up everyday, usually just once a day, but I really can't wait for the day when I stop throwing up for good! I still have very little energy and my Hcg hormone levels are triple what they should be and my brain always feels foggy and I always feel exhausted. I've been back home for about a month and a half and it has been very difficult trying to live my normal life and get the things done that I am supposed to. I try to just focus the energy I have in taking care of Livvy and keeping her healthy and happy and doing my best to take care of myself. My husband has been there for me thankfully. He has been very good at taking over dishes, laundry, vacuuming, putting Livvy to bed, and whatever else we might need. If it wasn't for the help of my family, my loving husband, and the strength from my savior I know I would never had the strength to make it through. It is still hard to get through the day, especially while Mikey is at work but we are making it and I am so grateful that I am a lot better than before. The best news is that my little baby BOY is doing good and at my last appointment they told me that there are not as many cysts in the placenta of the baby that died so that is good that they are going away and not growing! I am 22 weeks pregnant now so just a little over half way there! It has been a very long and difficult journey but in a few months we will have a precious addition to our family and we are very excited! I never imagined that being pregnant would be like this for me but that is my story!